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momentan sunt doar idei nu le-am pus la un loc

ideile sunt majoritatea eu + putin putin W. Wordsword si putin Giovanni Papini

eu - mecanism sexual pe care il iubim iubire, raul de emotii inchis de un baraj artificial, transformat intr-un lac in care domina monotonia. viata deja se misca prea repede si face aproape imposibil ca sa simtim ceva, ne-am construit ziduri atat de inalte, temandu-ne ce ne-ar putea fura alti

eu - parca e mai bine rece la un pas distanta decat sa arzi sub atingere. Nu. Noi nu ne jucam cu focul

- cateodata am impresia cand ies pe usa ca merg printre fantome, parca sunt doar transparente intr-un haos iluzoriu, o societate care precum o curva te iubeste mai mult cu cat o platesti mai bine. Cateodata ma intreb daca nu sunt eu fantoma

proverb grec - "sedu-mi mintea si imi pot avea trupul, gaseste-mi sufletul si voi fi al tau/a ta pentru totdeauna

eu - Ce ne sperie mai mult ideea de suflet sau ideea de totdeauna?

wordsworth + papini - daca mintea umana e capabila sa simta fara sa-i fie aplicati stimuli violenti, pentru fantoma din noi e necesara divina inconstienta a imbratisarii violente cand cele 2 suflete vor parca sa se smulga din trupurile inclestate pentru a se contopi intr-unul singur

eu - "te voi iubi pentru totdeauna" eternul se aplica doar lucrurilor care dor numai suferintelor, iar efemerul e flacara in care ard pana se consuma visele si zambetele

- ce s-a intamplat cu noi? am ajuns sa iubim zidurile mai mult decat ceea ce ele apara

- sa uzi cu o lacrima glontul care te va face amintire

- mi-e dor de acele clipe, de acele saruturi care ne mistuiau trupurile, acea

incandescenta in care umanul din noi tanjea dupa atingere, acel moment

de imposibilitate a sufletelor care nu se puteau contopi, acel moment in

care traiam atat in agonia trupeasca cat si extazul spiritului uman pierdut, care ne zgaria buzele in timp ce pentru o clipa eram nevinovati prinsi intre pasiune si pacat

inca cateva idei
am un invelis atat de dur, dar sunt complet gol in interior, toata viata am petrecut-o incercand sa ridic zidul din jurul meu cat de sus posibil, si am neglijat complet viata ce o proteja; armurile ne fac invincibili, dar suntem invinsi de fiecare data cand inima pe care o protejeaza incepe sa bata incontrolabil; da, a...rmurile ne fac invincibili/de neatins, dar inima ne face invingatori

"gloante de cerneala ce ucid pasiuni", "fantasme de vinovatie"

09.01.2011

Si barbatii sufera. Nu plang, dar sufera. Femeile macar pot vorbi intre ele si isi comunica problemele, iar constiinta lor colectiva le ajuta sa treaca peste "nesimtitul care si-a batut joc de mine".Un barbat nu poate sa isi arate slabiciunile, nu poate se discute despre emotii sau sentimente.

Noi trebuie sa stam precum Atlas, tinand realitatea si greutatile ei pe umeri fara sa varsam o lacrima sau macar sa ingenunchem cand suntem prea istoviti. Nimic nu ucide un barbat mai repede ca iubirea. Spre deosebire de femei, avem oarecum avantajul ca nu dezvoltam sentimente prea usor, si ajungem sa iubim cu adevarat de maxim 2 - 3 ori in viata, iar o femeie poate chiar in fiecare relatie noua pe care o are sa ajunga sa se indragosteasca la un punct.

De ce ajungem "nesimtiti" si "jucatori" si "futem tot ce misca"? De placere? Nu. De necesitate. Cel mai greu pentru noi e sa pierdem femeia pe care am ajuns in sfarsit sa o iubim, dar mai ales sa ne punem la bataie viata pentru o fata pe care o iubim si care isi bate joc de noi, care te tine in suspans fiind "indecisa", in timp ce in realitate viseaza la altul si ar face orice sa fie cu el. Aproape mereu va exista acel "celalalt" care arata mai bine ca tine care are mai multi bani, care fute mai bine etc. Cel mai greu e sa vezicum o pierzi pentru acel "altul" tu avand falsa speranta ca va fi cu tine. Trimite-ma la razboi dar nu ma trimite sa iubesc. La fel cum datorita evolutiei si necesitatii de supravietuire si reproducere, femeia trebuie sa selecteze un partener, pentru a nu fi ranita si pentru a-si asigura traiul, la fel si noi barbatii futem ca sa fim siguri ca nu iubim. Daca femeia refuza multi pretendentii si face cum vrea, noi barbatii de ce nu putem sa futem cat vrem? ( lasand la o parte termenul curva sau curvar )

Din ceva motiv pe care nu il pot explica, am tinut oarecum mult la o fata si poate ca am fost prost sa imi permit sa cred ca va fi ceva minunant; poate a fost curiozitatea poate a fost misterul, nu stiu. Am asteptat sa vad ce vrea si ce se va intampla in timp ce in mintea mea speram sa nu se ajunga la ceva rau cum se intamplase de atatea ori in trecut. N-am vorbit o vreme cu ea apoi am vrut sa o confrunt sa vad ce vrea. Mi-a raspuns cu o raceala completa. Dar asteptam asta pentru ca mi-am dat seama de ceva vreme inainte ca suspina dupa "altul" dupa comportament, atitudine etc. Stiti ce placum e presupun, sa iti prezici propria cadere, sa fi constient de ce se va intampla si ca nu poti oprii cursul intamplarilor? SI in momentul in care o fata te refuza, avand pe alt tip in inima, realizezi ca nu insemni nimic. Dupa mine, cel mai greu, cea mai mare suferinta umana, e senzatia ca nu existi, ca esti invizibil, ca nu insemni nimic pentru cineva care ai vrea sa fie important/a in viata ta. Oricum la fel cum femeile isi dau seama cand le inseli, la fel si barbatii simt can e vorba de "altul" nu e vorba de paranoia in nici unul dintre cazuri; si astfel te gandesti daca conteaza asa de mult o relatie, cand poti doar sa futi, sa fii imun la orice sentiment, totul sa nu cumva sa fi ranit sa nu cumva sa iti mai risti viata si sa iubesti o femeie.

Ma simt tradat, ma simt un nimic, mai are rost sa dedic timpul si atentia mea unei femei? Am ajuns sa fiu batjocorit de mine insumi, sa fiu un prost, sa cred in ce "spun"? oamenii. Cea mai mare greseala acum mi se pare sa iubesti ca barbat, a doua sa ai incredere.

NU zic ca barbatii o duc mai greu decat femeile. Difera doar modul in care suferim. Eu personal cred ca va fi de acum incolo aproape imposibil sa imi mai pese cu adevarat de sentimente sau emotii, mi-as dori sa devin rece, sa caut doar sex, nu relatii, sa nu mai acord incredere unei femei, si la final sa zic, multumesc iubire ca m-ai ucis. Eul ce am fost, am murit, multumesc afectiune, multumesc speranta, multumesc iubire, saruturi atingeri, si mai ales multumesc ca mi-ai zis salut inainte sa ma trimiti la spanzuratoare.

Femeile sunt afectate de barbatii, si barbatii sunt afectati de femei, e un cerc vicios ce nu se va sfarsi niciodata.

Si pe final, ca sa nu mai las nici o urma de speranta, trag o concluzie ca toate fetele care mi-au zis ca sarut bine m-au mintit. Asa acum ma simt mai bine ca sunt complet nimic si ca nu detin nici macar minimul necesar sa atrag o femeie

to the end of 2010

Partea I
to express the end of an era
end of 2010

Sunt gol, dar cad incendiat
Dinspre cer iar inspre rai,

Strapuns, iubit, insangerat,
Hranesc vise far' de grai.

Le dau aripi de hartie,
Tradez pentru sublimul trai,

Cer dreptul la nebunie,
Erou invins de-o amintire.

Cad, taiat de tragedie
Lacrimi, plata pe iubire

Au secat al meu avant,
Strang la piept o amagire,

Cu aripi frante, cad infrant
Spre raiul ce-l numim pamant.

Part II in 2011 let's see what changes

O noua chestie

fara titlu ...

"-------"

Strâng în brațe mâna
Ce mă ține la pământ,
Chinui animalul viu
Doar pentru un vis flămând.

Dulce consumat de lacrimi
Sub un zâmbet tremurând,
Sărutul tău fără de chip
Buze reci pe buze arzând.

Trup pictat în tragedie
Și vândut spre consumare
De iubire angajat
Într-o falsă alinare.

Incendiat în interior
Dar atingerea-nghețată
Iubit de al tău sânge rece
În inima-mi curată.

La intamplare

citate gasite si chestii la intamplare scrise de mine
citate
" vom vietui iubind senin/ si inima-mi curata / cu cel del urma al tau suspin/ va inceta sa bata "
" e mai usor sa pacatuiesti impotriva adevarului decat impotriva frumosului "
" a defini inseamna a banui "
"cat suntem noi nu e moartea si cat e moartea nu suntem noi "
" spiritul e o flacara ce consuma trupul pana la stingere "
" in general sufletul omenesc este foarte deficient in materie de obiectivitate "
" te-am iubit si nopti, dar te-am iubit si zile"
" maine e o noua zi in care nu ai gresit inca "

chestii la intamplare ale mele
- " toate marile realizari stau sub semnul durerii "
- idei ce vroiam sa le pun cap la cap pentru o poezie dar nu pot :
" avand ca tinta tragedie" " decat de ochii care plang " " am tras in inima-mi un glonte ce se numea iubire " " buzele cer ratiunea piere "
- " your lips are still my favorite place "

Chestii noi

ceva prostii pe aici

why does it matter what i look like, when it's my eyes that you face, my arms your embrace, my lips that you taste, my heart that you race, my dreams that you chase

Every hero has his journey... to bad some can't find the road

I only fear death, for it is the only thing that so strongly deprives the heart from beating for another.

we are two broken strings on a guitar that used to sing about love; or so i thought... in reality our songs were different, our words became dreams, our dreams became deceptions, because my notes sang about love, while yours just faked it

just sat and watched me burn, as my tears became bullets, piercing my
cheeks, returning to my heart, passing away, then being reborn within my
eyes, in an infinite circle of sorrow, as my lips turned to blades, and
i Just Wanted to Kiss You, and my eyes turned into empty shooting
stars, because so many wishes were wasted

currently working on a new poem

si dupa o lunga pauza, o poezie inceputa prin mai , si finalizata doar in la sfarsitul lui iunie ( sesiune ) ... recunosc ca vroiam sa o las balta pentru ca nu aveam idei ... dar a aparut si motivatia la un moment dat

- Fara titlu - nu stiu inca ma gandesc la "Iubesc, dar ... "
Insetat de lacrimi dulci,
Flamanzit de fericire,
Inselat ca sa distrugi
De ceea ce numesti iubire.

Ramai rece la chemare
Si te stingi pentr-o dorinta,
Zambet prins in acuzare,
Avand vointa-n suferinta
Cand iubim o consecinta.

Buzele cersesc durerea
Inecate in suspine,
Se jertfesc pentru placerea,
Ce promite sa le-aline.

Un singur drum spre sacrificiu,
Si-o mana intisa-n asteptare,
Ce vei fi pentru-acest viciu
Rasarit sub intrebare
Sau apus cu motivare?

Regrete ( Finalizata )

De ce pierd ce-mi este drag
Agatandu-ma(-n) in suspine
Umbrele la inimi trag
Cautand sa le aline
...
Suntem zei fara valoare
Consumati de neputinta
Traim sub propria acuzare
Gasind refugiu in fiinta
...
Si traim in amintiri
Timpul trece sa aline
Cu violente razvratiri
Printre lacrimi si suspine
...
Atunci cand fericirea doare
Si buzele nu mai respira
Ingenuncheat in toata ta splendoare
Sub umbrele ce te iubira

Work in Progress

jumatate din ceva in curs de scriere
o porcarie domnule'

De ce pierd ce-mi este drag
Agatandu-ma(-n) in suspine
Umbrele la inimi trag
Cautand sa le aline
...
Suntem zei fara valoare
Consumati de neputinta
Traim sub propria acuzare
Gasind refugiu in fiinta

Hmm..

I have no ideea what this is sorry :/

I'd sell my smile to buy one tear
And satisfy my starving lips
Deprive me from this lustfull fear
Innocence fallen in eclipse
...
Free me from these falling tides
Which scar my wants with violent needs
As passion into sin collides
Consumes my heart until it bleeds
...
Captive in this painfull dream
Embrace desire as it feeds
Tortured down to voiceless screams
Hope is deaf to all your pleads
...
Backwards in your final step
A breath away from your salvation
You grew too fond of your damnation
A sould addicted to temptation

Stuff Old & New

New:
While others live their dreams, i survive my nightmares

Life is the sum of the memories of yesterday, smiles of today, and breath-away's of tomorrow

Older one:
Even if our body was made of steel, our minds made of gold, our heart would still be made of glass , glass which can only be shaped by the fire in your kiss, the water in your tears and the touch of your soul as it embraces mine ...
P.S. for a.

This week's crappy poem
In the sunset i will fade
My violent end which scars the sky
Made my silent getaway
Rapture in the form of lies

Hide behind two broken masks
I am shattered, lost my face
Wandering through the things i've lost
As my heartbeats breathe in waste

Memories I've come to see
Moments since I took first breath
Fading as they're piercing me
Draining all that i have left

Upon my final resting place
One last thing before I'm gone
One last breath to see your face,
On which the sunrise shines upon
.
habar nu am sincer despre ce e e random si fara sens ...

1st poem for the book

first poem for the book is ready it sucks so it will be revised on

sad the heart that breathes in pain
chained by words it cannot say
hiding tears under the rain
heartbeat, heartbreak, breath away

the sky has stolen shades of gray
and the sun has lost it's smile
my heart in ashes sleeps away
my hope is painted in goodbyes

so when your tears have left you dry
and you've climbed over your wall
your fearful eyes are blinded by
the skip beat right before you fall

Started to write a book

if time allows i will try and start work on a bigger project, a book that i've always wanted to write so i will be testing and writing different new material for it and i will post it here but just bits of it so here we go it will be a combination of poetry and quotes

sad the heart that breathes in pain
chained by words it cannot say
hiding tears under the rain
heartbeat, heartbreak, breath away

the sun bathes in shades of gray
and the sun has lost it's smile
...

love makes you walk back a thousand miles just to remind you that destination is worth the distance

the distance to love is a million miles , but the destination doesn't lay in front of you it's following (behind) you, because sometimes the person behind you is more important than the one in front of you ... you might not reach the love you seek but the love that seeks you will follow you till the end
___________
the distance to love is a million miles , but the destination doesn't lay in front of you it's following (behind) you, because sometimes the person behind you is more important than the one in front of you ... you might not reach the one in front, but the one behind you will follow you till the end

don't know which to chose

July, 2009
A letter i wrote to a girl, a dear friend of mine from France, i learned that she passed away suddenly when i had just talked to her a week before, she had one of the most rough life you can ever see and yet she knew how to smile. So her sister asked her friends, if they want, they can write something to her and she will put the letters in a box with her
This is what i wrote:

"For Judith

Why do we live?
Is is for money, if it for glory, is it for things people will never remember us for?
No. The only reason we live is so that our heart can have what our minds will never understand, for the small things money can't buy, for the memories our friends will carry for the rest of their lives within their hearts.
We've only known each other for a short time, yet i feel like you were among the few people i look up to, a good friend that always had a kind word or a smile at just the right time, helping others and forgetting about your own struggles and problems.
Even in the few discussions we managed to have, i could see what a great person you were, combining so many rare qualities and being flawless in your heartbeats. The way i see it, live is not a reason for our being to be perfect but for our soul to be great, and you had one of the best and rarest souls a person can find in this cold world.
I once wrote that "my life's value is equal to the number of lives i can help become valuable", and if that is true, then Judith, my life is certainly one of the lives you have helped to become valuable, even when i myself had forgotten what life is all about.
I will end with a quote, one i showed you, one which i think describes you the way you are in my eyes "don't cry for yesterday don't fear tomorrow just smile today".

I hope you've gone to a better place, and tomorrow if it rains during the funeral, all the people present there should know that it's because the sky is opening it's gates for you, and angels will cry because their missing angel has finally returned home.

Rest in peace dear friend"

We all still miss you Judi, we all still do

the sky has stolen shades of gray
the sun now lives so far away
my breath sustains an empty shell
a sum of tales you cannot tell

the heavy rain has played its role
it placed its burden on my soul
even so, my smile won't fade
and armor that your lips have made

--------------------------------

when memories will come to fade
and your heart will breathe in pain
when all the dreams that you have made
will have been silenced by the rain

backwards in your final step

incomplete poems

Citate

O colectie de fraze pe care le-am scris cine stie pe la ce ore tarzii ale noptii si care poate va ajuta cu putina inspiratie sau poate cine stie, un sentiment de jubilatie sufleteasca



Visele tes doar o panza imaginara a celor mai ascunse dorinte

Ratiunea e o stea ce se stinge sub ploaia iubirii

a mind with no love is chaos ... loving with no mind is a shooting star on reason's sky ...

don't cry for yesterday don't fear tomorrow just smile today

A kiss is when someone sprays a little miracle on your lips.

I always wanted to sign your lips with mine, with one simple kiss to help our hearts align

Your lips are a canvas with a heartbeat and with every kiss you materialize/paint an emotion

Our heart's cannot speak , so we let our lips do the talking

The only reason we live is so that our heart can have what our minds will never understand

Poetry is when you take a bunch of words and arrange them in an order that makes sense for the heart and creates a puzzle for the mind

I believe fate is a series of fortunate accidents with unfortunate timing

All hearts have the same heartbeat. My heart beats for you

Your lips are red
Mine are too
Let's create a new color
Called "Me kissing You"

Live is not a reason for our being to be perfect but for our soul to be great

My life's value is equal to the number of lives i can help become valuable

God gave me feet so your footsteps would never walk alone
God gave me arms so I could catch you when you fall
God gave me breath so I could whisper in your ear "I love you"
God gave me fingertips so I could wipe away the tears that starve your lips
God gave me lips so yours would never be alone
God gave me eyes so you could look into them and see how beautiful you are to me ...
It doesn't sound real?
Well...
God also gave me a heart to animate my emotions
and...
God gave me tears so that this could never be just a dream
I am real...
I am here...

O scurta compozitie despre nimic

Despre nimic sau despre iubire, ma rog tot pe acolo e
din nou scuze pentru eventualele greseli si imperfectiuni
Why hearts win

so many years people have tried to show that thebrain is the center of our being
i still say they're wrong
it's not the brain
it's the
h e a r t
why?
well here's a few examples why
for starters , our brain nowadays are obsessed with

time ... seconds , minutes . hours
our heart uses something very simple to keep track of time
yep the heart uses moments
because it's moments ... moments in which you feel alive , moments in which you experience something truly majestic ... those moments you will remember

not hours, days etc.
your memories will always be based only on little things such as moments; that's how our heart sees life , as the moments which really mattered
another reason ...
when your heart is sad or hurting , you cry
when your heart is happy , you smile
when you fall in love , brain has no use because

your heart is bewitched ...
to put it simply
your heart experiences , your mind expresses
the heart is the one which sails the sea of emotions... the brain just brings to the surface whatever your heart is going through
for example
when you look in the mirror and say "i have to look good" or when you reject guys/girls because they are not "good looking" that's just your brain talking , ignoring what your

heart says
that's why the only way to find true love is to close your eyes and open your heart
and my final reason
the brain rules our emotions ... our feelings ... our love
wrong

it's love
love can only be understand by the heart it sneaked into
why do you think the heart has 2 sides
the sides stand for "you" and "me"
and also there's an inscription on the back of your heart
it says "God put me here"
you see it is said that God gave us free will so that we can do whatever we want with our destiny so in case we make a wrong turn , he gave us a heart as our last hope
that's why i think people say "Hold God dear in your heart or Hold God close to your heart"
Dreams are God's favorite ways to influence us
NOT thoughts or ideas
those come from our minds and cannot be labeled as positive things all the time ... with those we can just lie to ourselves. Dreams. They come from the heart . Through dreams your heart tells your mind what it wants, what you should be like
there might be other reasons why our hearts rule over our mind and destiny but only you know what your heart holds deep inside
my advice is
close your eyes, open your heart, and use every dream as a step on the staircase to Heaven

Si o colectie de...

Se pare ca poezii
Hmmm, poate va ganditit ca "mai scrie cineva asa ceva in zilele noastre?"
eh mai sunt cativa dar putini
Majoritatea nu cred ca vor avea vreun sens pentru restul persoanelor, si oricum majoritatea sunt in engleza asa ca daca nu stiti limba, ati luat teapa
Oricum scuze pentru eventualele greseli de scriere etc. nu am timp sau chef sa le corectez

Romana:
Lipsa

Un cer albastru, adanc , pustiu
Un deja-vu, trecut, tarziu
Un val de umbre, negru , dens
Asterne vorbe fara sens

O lacrima s-a pierdut in mare
O raza a cazut din soare
Realitati pierdute-n vis
In negura uitari inchis

Pasiune ascunsa, arzatoare
Ce ardea toropitoare
Stinsa de o lacrima amara
In zorii unei nopti de vara

Caci mereu lipsa iubirii
O tristete-a nemuririi
Va taia si va ucide
Pasiunea unei minti lucide

si

Rupturi

Un desert pustiu, in fata mea
o mare de lacrimi, pierduta-n urma mea
doar intuneric, adus din cer de-un vant
si un fior rece, venind de sub pamant

caci tu ai plecat m-ai parasit
si m-ai lasat de simturi pustiit
rupturi de vorbe last in urma ta
adio ... nu ... te voi ... uita

ai parasi nevrand acest pamant
zburand lin, pe un ultim gand
mergand pe ultimul tau drum
fara un ultim ramas-bun

lasand doar amintirea ta zglobie
toate tie le datorez doar tie
te voi pastra nemuritoare
intr-un zambet sub apus de soare

Engleza
By you and me

It's pouring down
Tears on the ground
They're riding on a creek
Made by cracks in concrete


And as they drop
They make a beat
Which tells in-depth
The story of the street


Where we last meet
Under that sunset
Under which our "we"
Turned into "you" and "me"


Where "you" and "me"
Were riding on a goodbye
Heading two separate ways
Making our "we"cry


"Me" cried all that day
When "you" went far away
His tears left marks on the ground
Each hiding a sound


So every time it rains
Each drop will play it's sound
The ballad of our "we"
By "you" and "me"
-----

To soul, signed : you

to fly on thoughts in lack of wings
to see beauty in little things
to always give instea of take
to show regret behind mistake

to see sunshine above rusty skies
to tell the truth instead of lies
to find true glory in modesty
to open hearts without a key

to get up when fallen down
to always smile and never frown
to wipe your tears when you might cry
you're a soul :) you never die
----

P.S.
U nmask your heart, rebirth your smile
O vercome your grizzled grief
Y ou might just be a secret that

E very lover's lips must keep
V alentine of an angel's kiss
O versoul of an imperfect bliss
L ook , i just want to tell you that ...

I don't know how i could say

S. o hard to describe, so hard to deny
P. ut my heart into this so just give it a try:
----
- Thank You -

At night i wish i'd catch a star
And make a song for my guitar
So i can thank You for helping me
With smiles in my life's diary

And when daylight comes
I finally fall asleep
Praying to You
You're running through my thoughts
My every memory
Come to my rescue

Chorus:
You're the air beneath my wings
The breath inside that gives me life
My Savior , thank You
You're the echo that my heart sings
The flame that keeps my soul alive
And I pray to You
I pray to you

You set upon my shoulder wings
So i could catch stars traveling
And find my star from high afar
And write a song for my guitar

So now i write

Chorus:
You're the air beneath my wings
The breath inside that gives me life
My Savior , thank You
You're the echo that my heart sings
The flame that keeps my soul alive
And I pray to You
I pray to you
----

- What is dream -

Have you ever wondered
What dreams are for
A fountain for our wishes
Our heart's wide open door

So how could i describe it
Using just simple words
Reflection of desire
Well i guess that works

So keep dreaming
dreaming

Chorus:

'Cuz it's dreams that gives freedom wings
A tune to which your soul can sing
It's dreams that keep your hopes alive
They're the things that make you wish
In life

Dreams are like diaries
Keeping secrets under key
Until your mind goes to bed
And your heart wakes up instead

And if you miss your love
There's a place where you can meet
Dreams can spawn the miles
Faster than a heartbeat

So keep dreaming
dreaming
Chorus:

'Cuz it's dreams that gives freedom wings
A tune to which your soul can sing
It's dreams that keep your hopes alive
They're the things that make you wish
In life

So dream on
dream on
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Heartbreak

Frozen in time , i stop and stare
Drowning in thoughts , fighting for air
I'm paralyzed between two heartbeats
Silence my only light
I'm empty as the seashore
Right before the tide
The words your lips have spoken
Have moved me down to tears
They made me feel heartbroken
They left me prey to fears
Goodbye's only bring grief
Happiness's feared thief
And as you turn and walk away
I stand frozen on the spot
Your tide has left me lost at sea
Heartbreak's a 2 second tragedy
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you've painted my world in deep shades of blue
i lost all my dreams, all that was true
and when you told me all we had was through
just four words on my lips, "i still love you"

as the ashes still burn in my dreams
thinking our life is more than it seems
alone in my room, drowning in tears
where are you now, to chase all my fears

as night passes, i just reach out for more
for you i sill love, and trust and adore
dust to dust, lovers to friends
can you truly say : "now here it ends"

not having you means a dark lonely place
because no one's love could ever take your place
as rain falls i stand surrounded in its misery
for i shall never kow love's true mistery

and in the end they say love never dies
but can you see the tears my soul cries
it wasn't worth not even a try
so now i stand, crying, alone
watching only angels fly
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stars follow the moment of your soul
they rejoyce with the deepest emotions
like the rainbow's colours on the skies unroll
stars are blured by your heart's moving motions

emotions are like feathers on the wings of life
they fall off as you surrender to despair
cut down by lonelines's old rusted knife
no one said that destiny's always fair

sit down and listen to the song of the stars
following the path of love's deep sensations
they cure the soul of loneliness and scars
saving your heart from the sea of desperation

sea of tears shed alone by my heart
tears of water but also two made of blood
and when they dried out, left two islands apart
two destinyes broken, my love and your heart
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When things go wrong

sorry i never told you, all i had to say
now we depart, each on their way
suffering and sorrow now fill my heart
which one rejoiced, now torn apart

someday you'll be shining down from heaven
i still long for that day, we'll be together
but my hope is lost, darkness breaks through
through greif and tears, still thinking of you

i always wanted to sign your lips with mine
with one simple kiss help our hearts align
you're all that i knew, a rebirth of my dreams
a burst of my soul, a goddes of tears

your love has been like a rebirth of space
you created a sun which enlightened my face
you gathered the stars all in your eyes
you're love couldn't be measured in depth nor in size

alone, hurt but still thinking of you
because of your leave my heart shattered in two
but you showed me the way to touch all my dreams
so i can still feel you take birth in my tears
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Downhearted

you walked a thousand miles
you sailed a thousand seas
never finding who you are
just who you want to be

your mind sinks in illusion
which scars your heart with daunt
decadence of a dauntless spirit
enslaved by chains of fear and doubt

you search for who you want to be
look high and low look near and far
defy the things that keep you blind
just be the best of who you are

you mirror God's mercifull face
you're a moonbeam giving light to stars
the sum of spirit mind and heart
you're perfect just the way you are

and in heaven on that faithfull day
having passed your life's exam
down on bended knee you'll say
"thank you God, for who i am"
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You can't

you can't stop the fall
of tears meant to be cried
you can't stop your thought
from humming through your mind
you can't stop a star
from sailing on a cloudy night
you can't stop the breath
that gives you life from deep inside

you can't blaim the breeze
for cooling down a summer night
you can't blaim the clouds
for beeing born with gift of flight
you can't blaim sorrow
for hiding you behind it's mask
you can't blaim a broken heart
for hiding in an iron cast

you can't see blood or broken hearts
before you cause the pain
you can't see the way it ends
before you play the game
you can't see above the clouds
the sunlight and it's sky so blue
you can't see how much i
have gained from loving you

Cogito, ergo sum

Cogito, ergo sum
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